Jesus, You are all I need. I'm clinging to the cross...

Well, here we are.  Less than a week out.   Only four more full days at home and I will be at camp.  It seems kind of surreal.  With each day that approaches, my eyes are opened even more to the fact that I literally will not be at home for an entire summer.   I know you are thinking that two month isn’t a long time but for me, it kind of is.  Even though I will only be about two hours away, I will be leaving people I love.  I will miss some important family events that will never happen again.  It’s kind of hit me hard when being around friends and hearing about their summer adventures and know that these upcoming months I’m going to miss out on that AND not see these people for two months.  It’s hitting me that I’m not going to be at VBS or other church activities this year.   While this is all going through my brain, I am reminded that this pales in comparison to the adventure I am fixing to embark on.  I know as soon as I get to camp, I'm not going to want to leave.  It's just the uncertainty. My little brain cannot even begin to imagine what God has in store.  He is preparing me, He is going to stretch me, and He is going to use me.  

When I had my interview for FUGE, I went to North Greenville, about half an hour away from AU.  This particular November morning, it was monsooning.  I mean seriously... I don't think it has ever rained that hard or that long in one day.  I rode with Lizzie Frye (who, thank the Lord, is working on the same team as me!)  After the interview, we were riding back to school.  We were both kind of quiet, just thinking about what just happened.  I distinctly remember this ride and as I was sitting there, I had SO many thoughts running through my brain.  I remember just praying that if this was meant to be, that God would make away for it to happen and place me where I was supposed to be this summer.  I was so eager and just wanted to be used!  I didn't want to waste my summer.  We were riding and all of a sudden the Kings of Leon song "Use Somebody"  started playing.  (yes I know this song has another meaning, but God used it to speak to me in this situation) I just wanted God to "use somebody, use somebody.  Someone like me."  That's all I wanted, was to be used by God!  So now, he's chosen to use me.  All I can say is "I'm ready now, I'm ready now!"

I'm already beginning to learn that I am not going to be able to do this by myself and that I am going to have to trust God more than ever.  Emotionally, I'm a little exhausted.  When I leave for camp, I will have gone to three funerals in three weeks.  God has showed me so much through these circumstances.  Even in the midst of that, I am thankful and overwhelmed for the outpour of love and support of my family, friends, and church family about camp this summer.  Know that it is such a blessing and SUCH an encouragement!!  I will do my best to keep you guys updated on what's going on at camp!   I'm already nervous about physically being able to handle it and just not getting worn down.  I'm in mid preparation of learning my lines.  If you guys could throw some prayers up that I learn them all, that'd be awesome!  Also some prayers that I can be content and not nervous about where I am going and what I am doing.  Finally be praying for the hearts of the teenagers we will be ministering to this summer.  That is the biggest thing.  It's what it is all about!  Pray that they will be open and receptive to what God is going to do in these weeks and that he will be preparing them now, even before they get to camp.  

Pheeeeew!

-Happy Birthday, Sara A!   Good luck on your exams!  Finish strong!!!! 

-Involved was really good tonight!  Thanks to Glenn and Patti for their dedication to this ministry!!!

-My best friend starts her internship tomorrow!  Know that I am praying for you, Brittany!  You will do awesome!

-My granddaddy's brother passed away yesterday... This hasn't been easy on him or my grandmother.  I admire them for being such strong people. 

- Mommy's little kiddos graduate on Tuesday.  They are such a cute bunch.  I love visiting their classroom and I am going to miss them deeply!  I hope they go on to do great things!

- Went on Thursday night/Friday morning to see the midnight premiere of Robin Hood with Caleb, Mikey, and KT Mid.  Basically you should go see this movie.  I only fell asleep once and it was because it was so late.  I would definitely go see it again!  Fantastic!

-So this Ke$ha girl.  I'm not feeling her name.  Like who says hmmm... I am going to be called K-E-money sign-H-A?  That Your Love is My Drug song though.... have to say it's quite catchy!

-I really hate when things are left unsaid.  It's frustrating.  SO very frustrating.  

- The Survivor season finale was on tonight.  Epic season.  The villain that was closest to a hero won!  I was still pulling for my favorite cowboy, Colby but settled for Sandra's victory.  At least that meanie poo Russell didn't take the title.  Ugh. Don't get me started on him. 

-Last night, I was right beside a cross dresser.  Cross that off my bucket list. 

- I am adding an item to my bucket list though.... "Visit the Holy Land."  This could be possible in February as my mom's cousin is taking a trip and told me I could come along.  It probably won't happen this go round but... it will!  One day!  (And when I asked my dad if  I could go, he told me that he could just sing "The Holy City"  and that would be the same thing......)

- I should probably consider getting some rest.  It's going to be a long and busy week.  

-kar