Wow! I can't believe a year has gone by! Honestly this year has been a whirlwind to say the least. This year has definitely been a roller coaster ride. Sometimes, I didn't want to be on that roller coaster. When I say that, I do not mean that I wanted my life to end or anything to that affect, I just wanted things to be better, to be normal. This is not a shock to anyone so I am not bashing or badmouthing him, but this was a huge part of my year. After over a year and a half, Tyler and I broke up. It felt like the end of the world. We broke up in March and until June we were on and off again. I thought that I was never going to be able to move on and I felt like crap. I had let this consume and control my life. That was a huge downfall. Normally I say I have no regrets however, if I were to regret one thing... it would be letting this situation control my life, my thoughts, my relationships with other people, and my decisions. I wanted to be at peace with what was happening. That peace did come. After what seemed like hell and back, I went to Poland on a mission trip. I didn't know anyone but God blessed me with this amazing opportunity. This peace came one night in worship. We had a prayer service where we were given pieces of paper with prompts and such about things to pray for. We prayed for our past and we prayed for our future among other things. During this service, many people were obviously moved and they displayed this by tears. If you know me, you know I am the person that will cry at the drop of a hat. I have never been good at controlling my emotions. I didn't understand why I was not upset. Several things went through my mind that night such as "Did God show up in their life and not mine?" I then realized... God did show up. He was there just like he had always been but this time he was calming a storm. My life had been a hurricane and finally I was at peace with whatever God had in store. This peace I had been longing for finally was there. I gave all of my problems and fears to Christ and he told me 'My child do not be afraid.' That experience was like none other. After we finished praying, we just sang praise and worship songs and I finally realized that God's plan is so much bigger for me than my own. He just wants me to understand that it is in his timing and not my own. Daily I have to remind myself of this and it's not easy. But the sooner we let go, the sooner we can arrive at some sort of peace. So this year, as you are making your New Years Resolution(s) let one be to give God control. When life seems helpless, remember that he really has never left your side and he is the only one who can give us true perfect peace.
Year in Review:
Memorable Moments of 2008:
-Graduation. It felt like it would never arrive, and when it did... it came too quickly
-Once Upon A Mattress!- Through the stress it was a really fun show
-Relay for Life!-
-Baltimore Mission Trip
-Warsaw Poland!- See above. And I made new friends on this trip and met an incredible guy!
-New York City- It is my favorite place on earth! And this time I got to see a lead's opening night in a show and witness the most amazing piece of musical theatre I've ever seen! South Pacific with the amazing Kelli O'Hara!
-Starting college
-New friends
-Charleston girls weekend
-Show Choir performances
- Proms
-Senior Picnic
-Saying goodbye to old friends but realizing our friendships can still remain.
-The list goes on on and on....
Hopefully 2009 will be even better! Until next year!
xoxo
-K
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